In order to really live our lives on this earth and not just be in existence, an inner life is necessary. Otherwise we will be swept up by the chaos all around us. It is also necessary so we can live a life that is, “in this world, but not of this world,” which is, really, who we are – not of this world.
Living the inner life is a strange expression to people who have always sought satisfaction (money, relationships, things) from the world. I have known so many people who actually run away from spending any time alone, because that is precisely what they would have to do – go inside for answers. Perhaps they have been afraid of what they will find.
Afraid and fearful, these are things that are the exact opposite of who we are; of our true essence being created in the image of our Creator, who is Spirit. Spirit knows no fear so it cannot create fear.
Anger, hate, racism, bigotry, sexism – all these things are the children of fear. Fear is not part of our essence, it is a cloak we wear, much like our human form is a cloak we wear. Fear is a tool of the enemy of our soul that keeps us from going within, finding life in the inner, in the wellspring of our Source.
I suppose I have been lucky in a sense, because I have always preferred a life of solitude over the partying crowds and throngs of noise that have never made any sense to me. The solitude did not guarantee that I would go inward to seek my answers and until I was pushed to do so, it was more a case of loneliness than just being alone. I had to go inwards to find a friend.
Have you ever thought of yourself as being two people; the one who stands in front of a mirror and the one who looks back at you from the mirror? I have, and at first it felt so weird. I was always awkward about looking at myself; never liked posing for photographs. It seems that most of my life when I looked at a picture of me or in the mirror I never thought I was good enough, pretty enough or smart enough.
Because I have been around for a few years I have had many opportunities to look back at photographs of me in different scenarios of my life. What I discovered about me and what I thought about me was so sad. It had only been in looking back at those pictures of me, remembering my life then and my accomplishments then, that I stood in awe of me and thought, “Wow. I was such a beautiful woman and did some pretty amazing things.”
I ran from compliments, or belittled them. Born with the most amazing head of red hair people always complimented me, and guess what? I hated my red hair because it came with freckles! I now freely say thank you because it is gorgeous.
I have come to see that everything about me is a gift from the Father and my admitting this beauty or talent is not being egotistical because I did not create me with this beauty or that talent, Father did and He is amazing.
Materiality or Spirituality
If the material things we seek are so great then why did wealthy people like Michael Jackson, Whitney Houston, Elvis Presley, etc. take their own lives when they had everything?
The message I get from their early deaths is that no matter how much stuff you have it does not fill that hole in us that every hu-man being is trying to fill. Every one of us has a void within that needs filling. The things of the world won’t work.
Even if you don’t see this yet, I have no doubt you will when the time is right for you.
The people I’ve mentioned were their happiest at the beginning of their careers. They had all come from singing careers rooted in singing gospel in their church choirs. You heard the love they had for Yeshua when they sang; you saw the light in their eyes.
Singing and praising God filled them with joy. As they became engrossed in the pressures of the world, their joy was depleting. They all felt pain and emptiness, and they all tried to numb that pain and emptiness with some kind of prescription or street drug or alcohol, or all three of them. With their busy lives, I doubt they had much time for meditating and reflecting on the goodness of YHWH or their love of Yeshua.
I also believe that each of them likely felt some kind of shame for the way that their lives had turned out; the partying, the drugs, the sex. All of those things were the exact opposite of who they once were; who they were in their walk of love with their relationship to YHWH and Yeshua.
Shame and guilt are killers unless we deal with them. They are feelings that never go away. We can stuff them down as much as we want; numb them with drugs and alcohol, but when the numbing starts to wear off, guess who pops to the surface first in our minds? It will be shame or guilt and it doesn’t matter which, because they both eat away at your soul.
They had found the inner life and when they became overwhelmed by the outer life, they lost themselves. Their light was dimmed. They became robotic puppets, their strings being pulled by the demands of the world.
The journey inwards might be a bit scary, but is worth it. Your best friend is waiting there for you – your true self, your Essence. Your Essence is your Source.
If you are reading this and not arrived at this point in your journey, I have no doubt you will brush me off as nuts. That is perfectly understandable because that is exactly what I did for years to others. Eventually though, something that I had read years and years earlier took hold. I smile now as I think that maybe one of the words you’ve just read has been planted in the soil of your heart, and when you are ready, it will begin to grow.
I actually prefer the inner life. But I cannot stay there because Yeshua himself told us that we are to be “in the world, but not of the world.” I can’t stay locked away and be in the world. I must, however, continually retreat from the world to replenish myself with the energies of Love, Goodness, Healing, and all that good stuff.
If we do not retreat, as Yeshua often did, we might find ourselves where people like Whitney, Michael and Elvis found themselves – lost.
John 17:12-17 (KJV) While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled. 13 And now come I to thee; and these things I speak in the world, that they might have my joy fulfilled in themselves. 14 I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. 15 I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil. 16 They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. 17 Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.
Spirituality & Materiality
In this moment I see a reversal taking place; a role reversal. I see more and more of us beginning to work on the return to our true Essence in how we live this journey. I see that the rightful role of Spirit, that was usurped by the flesh, is being restored, and that the gifts of the flesh – the five senses – will become tools that are used by the Spirit in our accomplishing our individual life purposes here on earth.
It is reverting back to the way it was; the way we are. No longer will we think or say, “Mind, Spirit & Body.” The power is found in the order of these three words, and so I say it is “Spirit, Mind & Body.”
It will not be the Material or Spiritual, but Spiritual and Material because both are Creations of YHWH. A new collaboration is taking place within each of us, and when that comes about, it will extend outside of us.