Given that so much is changing in my life, many things I am not even aware of, during my prayer/meditation time this morning I began to think about Yeshua’s disciple, Thomas. He’s the one I knew as being doubting Thomas because following Yeshua’s resurrection, so the Bible says, Yeshua could see the hesitation in Thomas’ eyes and suggested to Thomas that he come up and put his hand into the wound in his side that the Roman soldier had made with his sword while Yeshua was dying on the cross.
It was that same wound we are told that issued not blood but streams of water. Something that I have thought was symbolic of Yeshua’s Holy Spirit leaving its human form.
John 20:24-27 “But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came. :25 The other disciples therefore said unto him, We have seen the Lord. But he said unto them, Except I shall see in his hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and thrust my hand into his side, I will not believe. :26 And after eight days again his disciples were within, and Thomas with
them: then came Jesus, the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, Peace be unto you.
:27 Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side: and be not faithless, but believing.
Spirit expressed to me that doubting is not a bad thing, it is in fact something wonderful because it is a first step to knowing.
If I had not doubted traditional religion, family customs and the accepting norm, I would never have begun this journey, and I most certainly would not be as strong in the convictions by the Spirit; so strong as to speak out words and ideas and suppositions, that to the old me would seem to be the ramblings of some insane woman who was drunk or stoned, or just missing a few marbles.
Doubting is the beginning of Knowing.
What is that knowing I am beginning? I dare say it is knowing what is:
- Truth, and
So to the canonical people and those that determined this story about Thomas should be included in the versions of the Bible, I say thank you.
That is the first part of the revelations of this morning. Because I was thinking about Thomas, I knew there was more in literature around my home about Thomas in one of my many books. The first book I picked up contains two sections purporting to be authored by Thomas, found with the Nag Hammadi scrolls:
- Thomas’ writings about the infancy of Yeshua, and
- the Coptic Gospel of Thomas in which he sets out 114 ‘secret’ teachings of Yeshua, some of which have been paraphrased and can be found in our Bibles
In the introduction of The Coptic Gospel of Thomas it is said that some have suggested Thomas was Yeshua’s twin brother. Being who I am because of my upbringing and teachings that I learned, I am indeed a doubting Thomas and finding this one a hard pill to swallow. BUT, the good news for me is I am not saying no. Doubting is the beginning of knowing.
I will do a separate post with some of the 114 secret teachings of Yeshua that spoke to me as I was reading them.
Like the layers of an onion, when we begin to peel the layers, the lies and deceptions disappear and
TRUTH and WISDOM